A Few Statistics

So this is it. Tonight I am cleaning up my act, resetting after drinking too much for too long and taking a month (The Shortest Month - see last post) off.

On my final night (31st of Jan) of getting a buzz on I was very well behaved. Bought a six-pack of Asahi but as my wife oft nicks one out of the fridge upon arriving home from work, I cheated and got myself a 500ml can as well. So I drank 125ml more than usual. At least there was no tequila based last hurrah fiesta going on. I especially don't regret that today, one never wishes they'd had more to drink after the fact, does one? 

*laughs poshly* 

How am I feeling?

A little anxious. I can't wait to be a week deep. I don't expect to be sleeping too well, and I'm not looking forward to having to bat away my subconscious trying to get me to drink.

- Charles Bukowski did it and wrote at night with the radio on. 

By all reports Bukowski was a complete prick on and off the beers. And I don't listen to the radio.

- You're not that bad. Some of your friends drink more than you do.

It's bad enough to take a month off, mate. Remember you looked hard at yourself in the mirror the other day, and said "you look like shit, you need a break."? Also, most of my friends drink less than I do.

- Well then just drink less for god's sake.

You tried that many times, it hasn't worked.

- This is ridiculous!

Ridiculous? You haven't even made one night yet.

Full disclosure; Before Christmas I was going to the gym 4 times a week. I've taken up boxing, so I jump a lot of rope, punch bags, and do many burpees. I'm actually in pretty good shape. The reason for this is I think it might be a bit of guilt trip I've got going on, whereby I offset my drinking with hard exercise. It's not the worst thing in the world, but I don't know if I'm looking forward to having a heart attack on an assault bike. 

I weighted myself at the gym today - a pinch under 80kgs (79.6)

Here's a photo of my face today.

The mirror in our bathroom makes anyone look like complete shit. That's my excuse.

Anyway, fire up the soda stream motherfuckers. I'm gonna have a water... 





Comments

Lori said…
I am relating to every word you have written. The anxiety on day one through to my subconscious saying you don’t drink that much! Keep writing, it’s making me cope as I experience the same emotions and thoughts. I’m already over sparkling water. We have got this!x